Empty.
I suddenly feel so empty and emo all of the sudden. I hate pms-ing, like seriously. Sigh, the reason...
I WANNA GO FOR THE JESSIE J CONCERT. OR SIMPLE PLAN.
Can't help it that I love all of them. I wish I could go, so now I'm just feeling lifeless. Homework all done, studies all complete, I got nothing to do D:
On a random note; the most annoying thing about a breakup? Having to erase all the anniversaries on your calender. It sucks but well, you gotta do it. If we were still together, tomorrow would have been our 8th month anniversary. I used to have so many dreams about every month of our anniversary... I would imagine we could go out and have lunch, sneak out of school and you'll drive us somewhere where we can just sit in the car in silence and just be with each other. I have no idea how to describe it.
My advice to those who read this and is in a relationship right now; appreciate every moment you have with him/her, cause you never know when one day that person might walk out of your life.
I miss that boy in my life, but I try not to show it... I miss everything. Though not the tough times, they always seem to make my heart squeeze in pain #trollface.
*sigh*
That's what I did though. I wish I could have loved him better than what I did. Funny when someone's gone then only do you ever seem to notice how much they mean to you.
Heart this song so much! So emotional and true :)
Why am I still holding on in the first place?
;All I hear are angels crying, oh won't they just sing instead?
Labels: emo-ness, feelings, random, rant
Gossips
Rant alert!! Just a warning *winks*The other day I was speaking to one of my friends when we both started gossiping about some other girl and talking bad about her. In my defense, I didn't know it could ever hurt anyone. Safe to say that's when I discovered karma. Yup, that bitch.
So I thought, I guess I don't want to talk about people unless its just general, REAL news about them, because gossip can hurt anyone.
Its always like:
And you know what's even more digusting??:
Might be a bit blur but it says
Right: She did a BJ on him!!!
Left: OMG!!!
Yes, I know I'm wasting my time doing this, but honestly, I love making this speech bubbles thingy :D
Point is, when you gossip, you don't know whether or not you can hurt someone when they hear bout you about them. It might not even be the REAL story.
For example, refer to speech bubble number 2, that girl you heard doing the deed with her boyfriend? Calling her a slut is just plain harsh because *cough cough*
Number 1: She and her boyfriend might have already had the sex talk. So don't be a kepo and go kiss your Edward Cullen poster or something.
Number 2: They might have did it out of love. Ever heard of it? Not to be confused with lust because when your in love, you tend to do all of this, out of love, got it?
Just because you haven't walked in someone else's shoes before, doesn't give you the fucking right to assume and judge. Got it?
Sorry if I sound too harsh or something, that's just me being me, deal with it ;D
;Every breath that I take proves that I can live without you.
Highlights in 2011
2011 may be over, but the highlights of it still remains fond in my heart, so I will now blog about the last days of 2011 :D Farah's birthday party was by far one of my favourites; movies, friends, lunch, getting to hang out with everyone else, who doesn't like that?
Nah, Joel, happy de, finally my blog got your pic? xD
Had lunch in Manhattan Fish Market; the food was good, as usual :D
(Another) Farah and Yasmin :D
My sis and the birthday girl :D
Me and Nad :D The left angle of my face makes me look like a man *worried*
The birthday cake; lack of icing so it said something like "wufn hi finfhn". I'm not kidding, but it tasted good :d
The party hats :3 Picture taken with my Ray, see how cool it is!! :D *shiok sendiri lmao*
All of us finished up and later went to watch Sherlock Holmes:
Exactly one day after Farah's 15th birthday party, my whole family went down to The Lost World Of Tambun! :D Had loads of fun splashing around in the water, relaxing in the 40 celcius hot pool, ate crepes with chocolate ice cream just spending time quality family time. P.S: Not much pics cause since this is a water park, I couldn't really bring my phone for fear of getting it wet, spoiling it, etc. I forgot my camera too anyways #swt.
The pics I did take:
Angry birds!
The band from the park. Seriously, who knew you could scan it, pay money, and then have a certain amount of cash on your wrist! Its like In Time but without the time :D
At the gift shop where dad bought two clay (or was it something else?) rabbits and a chicken in a nest. The chicken's by the stairs and its seriously haunting me. And watching every move I make *shudders*
The view from the carpark.... On to the next event :D
New Year at my grandma's house. Relatively quiet, but all in the same a great bonding time with all your family members. And I mean all of them.
The gingerbread house, it looked so good #cute-teary eyed-hands to face-guy
A cigar made of... Chocolate... Liek seriously, where to I get one of this?? #chocolateaddict.
My bro's "godfather face" :D
My equally noob face -- I had no makeup on anyway xD
:D
;Real talk, real laugh, good love, goodnight, with a smile, thats my hope.
Labels: family, friends, fun, happiness
Culture Shock
Mood: Apprehensive2nd day of being a Form 4 already and its really... Intimidating. Like seriously, all the new tough subjects, new format (all subjective), new teachers (oh yeah, one of those too) and a new class, its gonna be a rough time to start all over again. And believe me, I'm really apprehensive about starting all over again... After what I've been through this past holiday *shudders*
Mood (on certain days): Missing... Missing... *gags on words* HIM. Oh God, I finally said it.
Yeah, well, I know I'm already suppose to be over him since its been like already 2 months since all this crap has been happening... But somehow, I get stopped in my tracks and when I think about it, of course I do miss him. Miss him or miss us, that's the thing I'm not sure about.
Well, DUH I'm suppose to be missing him (I wouldn't be a normal human being if I didn't miss the memories of someone I used to love) , whenever I walk around the whole school there are memories of us everywhere, the place where we use to sit down and talk (or was it standing up? My memory's been too hazy), and every single fucking day I have to pass by the same laluan where he and I first sneaked of away from school for our first official date. It's like there, Tenny, I am making you suffer by looking at the place where we used to walk, hold hands, laugh etc...
Sometimes, I have to crazy swallow my tears, look like I have a really bad case of allergies, and go on with my life... Like this guy:
Yeah, I made him myself... He shall be called, Mr. Loveless :D
Mood 3: Panicky
Tuitions, extra classes, kokurikulum, and homework to think about... Somemore with
ADD MATHS, PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY,
BIOLOGY... I FEEL
LIKE SWEARING RIGHT NOW.
I guess this is what you get when you didn't go for tutition during the school holidays, as one of my teachers aptly puts it "get ready yourself, physically and mentally cause this is gonna be a cultural shock". Wise words, wise words.
;What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller.
Labels: missing, school, weirdness
2011 simplified.
Way long overdue post since its like 3 of January now but well, I still have one more day before school starts (with the possibility of add maths, biology, physics and more scary subjects *shudders*) to get on with this blog post and so, I shall :DFirst of, 2011, has been an amazing year full of ups and downs but it would deff make my list as the year where I got everything I've always wanted... Like five years back #trollface.
Starting of, I played the piano for the first time,
I had a boyfriend for the first time,
went for a date, for the first time,
beach party with friends for the first time,
broke up for the first time, got straight A's!
after I thought I couldn't do it, listened to FOR THE FIRST TIME and went to the last class for the first time in my life :O
Confused? Yeah, so am I. Well, it was such a confusing year, even Confucius was confused listening to it #true story.
Well, I hope this year will be another year where all of my dreams transformed into reality (God, I hope so) and another year of growing up and learning... Just in a more GENTLER way.
Let 2012 be a year of abundance, luck and full of love for everyone... I hope for the same for my fate too #LOL.
;I don't know where your going, just get your ass back home.
Labels: confuse, happiness, the new year
Such a SHORT post.
So was talking to two of my friends on facebook about exercising and we were crapping at the same time when he said this...
Tennielle Chua Ha, I'm already 5 foot 5 yo xD can beat that? :P
2 hours ago · · 
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Chandhirha Jievan Richard OMG SO SCARED i'm 5'8 woman hahahaha.....3 inches shorter than me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
about an hour ago ·
Yes, I know, hilarious -- Btw, I'm not mad at what my friend said, but it did kinda make me realise that yeah, 5"5 is short for someone like me :(
And then, that's where Selena Gomez comes in yelling "YOU! Who says? Who says your not PURRfect, who says your not worth it!?! Who says????" #trollface.
Tomorrow, birthday party, next day, last holiday of the year... Literally :D
So I guess I can't wish everyone a Happy New Year since I'll be driving/singing Alleluia in church, so;
PRE- HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Hope everyone has an awesome year ahead :D
Me and my new pet star Wazzie :D Btw, love my new nail color <3
;It's okay not to be okay, It's hard to follow your heart.
Labels: friends, holiday, the new year
Le Christmas Time
First of, before I start of this post, I just wanna wish everyone
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Okay, I know it's kinda late since it's like Boxing Day swt, so I also wanna wish:
HAPPY BOXING DAY!!!
So, for Christmas, as usual, we went for our tradisional midnight Mass, but before that, went to Cafe Jumbo again. Food, as usual was awesome, what wasn't awesome was that, I had the flu so could barely identify each taste of the food (okay, exaggerating, I could taste sweet, salty, bitter, sour, etc) #FFFFFUUUUU. Stupid flu --"
Okay, enough of me talking, I'll just show you the pics :D
But first, zeee camwhore pics:
My waved up hair :D
The dress that I wore.
Full shot :D I love waves <3
Okay, now for the food pics:
Turkey breast salad for starters
Roasted chicken with fettucine for the main course... The tomato paste was like #heaven!!
And rounded of with:
Cheesecake with strawberry and whipped cream #droolfloodsthefloor.
Oh God, I literally died in that cafe from goodness overload #heavenly.
Then the whole family went for midnight mass. Was pretty cool since it was the first mass for the Divine Mercy church :) It finished in about 2 hours and when we got out, I went to take a pic of THE CRIB... No, the house kinda crib; baby Jesus's crib :D
Later, for supper we went to McDonald and my gosh, when I walked in with my dress, makeup, etc, everyone was staring at me like as though I was siao like wtf. Maybe they were thinking why this girl walks in here at 2 A.M looking like she just came back from a bachelorette party?? And is she drunk??
I'm not being self consious or antything, its just that, yeah, I notice a lot of things #trollface.
And one more thing, I saw this guy staggering out of McDonalds and literally jumped on a girl outside who was texting and asked her "Kenapa hang buat aku tunggu sampai lambat sangat?". Translation "why did you make me wait for so long?" and I was like, is she a hooker or something???
Cuz then McD would be like a collecting place or something. Don't mind my rambling, I'm just slightly shocked that I witnessed that. And the girl looked as if she didn't even noticed him and just continued talking! I seriously hope she's okay #concerned.
Okay then, that was Christmas eve, now is the real big day! Dun dun dun.
The table before the food :D
The Nando's chicken with sausages and vege kieshe ( I think that's how you spell it o.o)
Fries, mixed vegetables, salad and glass of white wine :D
Poached red wine pear with vanilla ice cream :D
Speaking of wine, I had like about 5 glasses+ of wine, but turns out I didn't get THAT drunk o.o
After that, rested and went to one of my aunts open house plus Christmas party...
Heart(s) skip a beat :D
Zee candy :D Taken with my Xperia Ray, see how CLEAR it is??
Internet connection sucks so this post took me almost 2 hours to complete fml --
Last but not least, my Christmas present, yes I got IT!
My beloved Xperia Ray :D
Dream phone, dream Christmas, dream year, thank you God :D
;Joy to the world, the Lord has come.
Labels: Christmas, family, fun, handphones, happiness
I DID IT!
OMG, I did it, I got straight A's! God, all the hard work, tears, fears, arguments and bad things was all worth it in my quest to get straight A's (I kinda make it sound like The Lord Of The Rings here) finally payed of! #freddiemercurypose. First of all, I have to thank God, then my parents, and teachers who stood beside me... Even I thought I couldn't do it. So, Sony Xperia Ray, here I come to get you! #trollface.
Me and Mr. Fauzi, my mum couldn't stop thanking him xD
Me vaining with my slip :D
My slip :D
Later, after getting my results, the whole family was there for Coco Barry's birthday party in a steamboat restaurant :D Had lots if fun BBQ-ing/grilling food, although oil sparks were flying a bit everywhere ><
I'll just let the pic's here do the talking:
Water fountain- random :D
Pretty lights :D
My dinner, I know, kinda pathetic but nice :D
Candid shot of my sis with her piece of ham
Tried to take a picture amongst the smoke, nyeh, turned out okay :D
Me posing with the birthday boy :D We both kinda muka sama kan? xD
Overall, yesterday was seriously awesome, I mean, PMR results, getting to choose what phone I want... My 2011 is finally complete :D
I can finally relax... And I'm now having sorethroat for whatever reason I don't know #swtface.
;Your the only one that knows me better than I know myself.
Labels: family, fun, happiness, results
