Okay, so like today was Penggy's birthday and I got invited to his seriously huge, posh house and had tons of fun spending time with those crazy friends of mine :D We also met other guys from different schools and they were really nice too :)
  Fun things like; a BBQ dinner under the setting sun, cycling (for the first time in 5 years) to the beach, playing frisbee, a couple asking us if we could pose for their wedding photoshoot as one big group, watching movies and playing Twister for the first time in my life (I meant the Twister)  :D













 My butt still hurts from cycling for the first time in 5 years D:
 Best part? Laughing, screaming and joking for 5 hours straight until my facial muscles hurt... Not to mention those Twister chinks in our ligaments :D
 All in all, a totally awesome day I might add :D
 P.S: Would have taken pictures but my camera... Well, the charger broke, the connecting cabel is lost and so my camera is totally MIA right now *sniff*

*re-edited*
This post was originally from 13/11/2011 which was like the longest time ever cause my camera's charger broke so I got it fixed and voila, new edited post. Sorry for the inconvinience wtf.


;Stay up late, we don't sleep, got our friends, got tonight so we'll be alright.

Labels: friends, fun

 The meaning of the one that got away? It means losing someone that you thought was "The One" by circumstantial or a personal choice. It's never easy losing someone that you thought was perfect for you. It's hard to push away all of the other feelings, especially if that "One" was also your first one. I guess thats what I thought when I heard Katy Perry's "The One That Got Away":

Labels: feelings, heartbreak, music

 Jason Derulo. Dang, he's hot. He should be crowned the King Of Sweet Words That You Should Say To Your Girlfriend. Dang, thats a lonnggg title :D
 Filling my time up with things that keep my mind super busy... No time for thinking, not even giving you another minute or hour or any other day.
 Back to Jason Derulo.
 He is so damn schmexyyyy!! :D I especially love this song:



And:

Labels: date, music, wish

 Things will get better one day, I wish it will be though sooner than later. I just want to move on and forget that things ever did happen. I wish I could be strong without you there for me. I hate this feeling, I now even hate thinking about you, but its never you. I don't blame you, neither do I blame myself for feeling this kind of things. But I sure do miss you, a whole lot and thats one feeling I seriously don't like.
On a much more happier note, I am totally in love with Coldplay's "Paradise" <3
That song gives me goosebumps and chills :D



Their album's name is so cool... At first I thought it was just gibberish but now, it actually sounds cool :D Mylo Xyloto... I could say that for 50 times and never get tired... :D Its funny, cuz I've never really liked Coldplay but now I think they're songs are really awesome. And their album cover art is super creative, not to mention that ;)
During this next few months, I made a promise to blog everyday to document my emotional state through this breakup. Makes me sound like I'm my own Science experiment, but I just need to find a trend here... Tryimg to find out patterns in my emotional state throughout this whole year so that I'll just know. Curiousity really makes a person act weird. You know what? Maybe this really isn't such a great idea after all --

Labels: music, rant

 Its really funny that everythings been happening around me for such a short time, maybe a week perhaps, that I haven't even gotten use to the fact that yeah, you're gone alredy. Not gone as if totally gone, gone, but just... Not there for me in the way that I wanted. I know things will never be the same but I really don't know whether I should still hope or not? Fine... NOT.  It's also really funny now that I don't wake up early in the morning anymore and find myself missing you so much that I wanted to call you up and everything. Now, its more as if a different me is taking over, a me who is so afraid of commitment, someone who has walls up and who pretends to be happy even though she's not... I really don't like this new me, but what can I do anyway? I miss the me who was with you, she was way happier, didn't always feel numb, always felt something because of you (anger, fusteration, happiness, feeling as if I wanted to speak my mind out... Ah, good times). The point is that at least the old me had feelings and not walk around all day pretending as if everything is okay when it is so definitely NOT. And this feeling of helplessness... It sickens me just to think about, the constant what if's, the wanting to have you back, I hate all of those feelings.


 Sometimes I wish that things would get back to normal, to the life that I'm used to but no, it can't be that way. I know you and I know me already all too well. if we would get back together, things will still be unsolved, there will be tons of misunderstandings because of our huge ego's and yeah, nobody will be much happy anyway. I know all this but somehow I just can't accept it.

Labels: feelings

 This post is dedicated to someone who was really close to me, who was the most important person but now who can't be with me. I understand that right now, you can't be with me but I seriously hope that you will still remember me. What we had was really, really special to me, the feelings are all still pretty much there and I will never ever forget about you. Ever. You really were the best thing that's ever been mine and I wasn' ready to let it go. But now, I guess I have to. Hope you will be happier than you ever really were and maybe one day, things between us will turn out for the better. Istillloveyou. I will still remember all of our promises, good memories, the bad. Every laughter, tear, mistakes and memories will be as fresh as the day I still remember that you told me you loved me for the first time. You truely did change my life and even though you're not with me now, I will never forget that :) I hope you won't too :)

Labels: feelings

 I'm starting to notice a freaky trend in my taste of music nowadays... I'm starting to like bands that all start with the word 'Big' e.g: Big Time Rush and now, Big Bang :O Ah well, at least both of those mentioned bands have really great songs :) Plus Taeyang is soooo adorable!
It started when I fell in love with their song 'Haru Haru' and 'Tonight'






This is their original MV for 'Tonight' :D And Taeyang is so cool and cute in this vid :D I'm usually not a fan of Korean bands, but I think they could be the only exception <3 And the best thing? Most of everyone I know are fans of them :) Another reason they are so awesome is because they even sing great live... Especially 'Haru Haru' the acoustic version.



There's also "Tell Me Goodbye" which tells the story of this pair who has to seperate for some reason... Especially love the part where Daesung says "being by my side merely is not kindness baby" :D Well, I think that was what he said (I had to get the help of subs for that one). But I sure do love that song... And Taeyang :D



There's a weird trend now in all my music tastes cuz I just noticed that every band I like... Like really like, like, all starts with a "big" in the front e.g: Big Bang and Big Time Rush.... I just had to repeat that of course to tactfully bring in Big Time Rush :D
Speaking of Big Time Rush, they now have a new album on the way (kinda sounds like I'm proclaiming a pregnancy over here) and the due date is 11.21.11 <3 I just couldn't love that date even more :) Actually, I have no apparent reason to love that date but I just do :)

The album is called "Elevate" and it is said that;

‎10 details revealed by Big Time Rush!:-

1. The album's name is Elevate and the release date is 11.21.11
2. The boys were in Canada during the live chat and they are currently filming Big Time Movie!
3. One of the songs in the album is called No Idea and it is a ballad
4. Another song called Love Me, Love Me is included in the album and it's an upbeat party song
5. The first single that will be released is called Music Sounds Better With You! The boys co-wrote the song with Ryan Tedder
6. Most of the tracks in Elevate were written by BTR
7. The album can be pre-ordered starting Nov.1, a day before Kendall's birthday
8. The song You're Not Alone is dedicated to all BTR fans
9. Carlos wrote the song Invisible while thinking of the fans
10. Be creative and create a 11.21.11 picture and put it as your Twitter pic during the week of the album's release and the best ones will get shout-outs from the boys!

Num 10 is just really optional but its official! BTR will be releasing their new album by mid-November! :D Wow, and too think their debut album just came out at the start of this year... This boys sure do work fast... *stunned*

<3

Oh boy, you have no idea :)

Everything post PMR is all good, no that much signs of stress anymore... Half of the time I don't even remember sitting for the exam. I kinda just remember bits and pieces of it... Of course, who would want to remind themselves of all the panicky memories? Thank You Lord for this short term memory loss :D 

Status after PMR activities: Totally bored and irrelevent even to come to school... But forced to and

                                              as usual, being drawn back by something ;)

Labels: album, Big Bang, BTR, korean music

 PMR is seriously putting a strain on me, even though that I don't show it but it is.. And the only way I'm releasing it is by channeling all of the negative emotions into something and showing it to someone who means a lot to me... Now I finally understand and I'm touched by how he managed to handle me all those months where I was as lifeless as a dead fish (that ain't really livable at all, though). But now... I don't know whether I did a mistake, said something wrong, DID something wrong but all I know is that maybe things have to change for the better... We have to change for the better :)
 I know PMR is in 3 days time, but I need at least to feel better first and now I can face up my exam with more optimism... Cuz being sad during an exam week, is never advisable :( But to apologize or talk about it... I have to first put aside my ego.. Dang, I can already feel the physical pain in doing that... But who knows, things might be different.
 But right now, the most important thing and person to me is millions of miles away, emotionally and physically... I'm not sad.. Just a feeling of numbness that I can't comprehand... Like the calm before a storm or emotionally shutting of to all of your problems for the better... I don't really know what this feeling is called but its scaring the heck out of me and I just need to feel your arms around me one more time to feel alive...
 I don't want much, I just want to be happy... I mean, everyone has their own bad days and its inevitable, but just for once, just for me, please smile and be happy :( That's all I want to ask from you :)

Labels: songs

 School holidays are going by so fast and  now I have at least 2 more days before school starts and then the PMR stress will be coming at full speed (considering the exam will start at October XP) So far during this school holidays, there has been a lot of running around, going out... Seriously... Gurney, Straits Quay, Queens, an open house (the latter my absolute favourite) and today also have to go out to Sunshine for some shopping and an appointment... wow, I didn't even rest throughout this whole holidays XD The downside, no time to study, just managed to read a little bit of History and Science... Ah, suffice enough :)
Beyonce's new song :D



Fell in love with this song when I heard it on MTV's Video Music Awards :D

P.S: Please be happy with her so that I can move on :)
I'm still in love with that song :D
And school just started XP

Labels: songs

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