Smile Once More
PMR is seriously putting a strain on me, even though that I don't show it but it is.. And the only way I'm releasing it is by channeling all of the negative emotions into something and showing it to someone who means a lot to me... Now I finally understand and I'm touched by how he managed to handle me all those months where I was as lifeless as a dead fish (that ain't really livable at all, though). But now... I don't know whether I did a mistake, said something wrong, DID something wrong but all I know is that maybe things have to change for the better... We have to change for the better :) I know PMR is in 3 days time, but I need at least to feel better first and now I can face up my exam with more optimism... Cuz being sad during an exam week, is never advisable :( But to apologize or talk about it... I have to first put aside my ego.. Dang, I can already feel the physical pain in doing that... But who knows, things might be different.
But right now, the most important thing and person to me is millions of miles away, emotionally and physically... I'm not sad.. Just a feeling of numbness that I can't comprehand... Like the calm before a storm or emotionally shutting of to all of your problems for the better... I don't really know what this feeling is called but its scaring the heck out of me and I just need to feel your arms around me one more time to feel alive...
I don't want much, I just want to be happy... I mean, everyone has their own bad days and its inevitable, but just for once, just for me, please smile and be happy :( That's all I want to ask from you :)
And you smiling at me again :(
Not Meant To Be
Its never enough, to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
Knowing if I give that to you, I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
(Chorus)
Its like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do your always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
Its like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want and its killing me
And I, I'm starting to see, maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe, that there's no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
(Chorus)
Its like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do your always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
Its like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want and its killing me
And I, I'm starting to see, maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
You could be building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking, maybe it's too late
(Chorus)
Its like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do your always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
Its like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want and its killing me
And I, I'm starting to see, maybe we're not meant to be
Its like one step foward and two steps back
No matter what I do, your always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
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School Holidays fading :(
School holidays are going by so fast and now I have at least 2 more days before school starts and then the PMR stress will be coming at full speed (considering the exam will start at October XP) So far during this school holidays, there has been a lot of running around, going out... Seriously... Gurney, Straits Quay, Queens, an open house (the latter my absolute favourite) and today also have to go out to Sunshine for some shopping and an appointment... wow, I didn't even rest throughout this whole holidays XD The downside, no time to study, just managed to read a little bit of History and Science... Ah, suffice enough :) Beyonce's new song :D
Fell in love with this song when I heard it on MTV's Video Music Awards :D
P.S: Please be happy with her so that I can move on :)
I'm still in love with that song :D
And school just started XP
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